I Became a Christian
Lewis Carroll once said "Begin at the beginning and keep going until
you reach the end, then stop." With that in mind, this is my story
I was born into a Christian family, both my parents were very active in the
church and as I grew up they encouraged me to be active also. I was an altar
boy, read the lessons and sung in the choir. Being confirmed at the age of eleven
seemed a natural progression within the church. Life was good, I was doing well
at school, lots of friends and a girl I fancied. When I was thirteen my father
went into the ministry, but I had no idea what lay in store.
At the age of fifteen he was ordained. At the age of fifteen I hated life, school,
parents, church, everything. At
the age of fifteen I moved. Friends, school, the girl I fancied, church, home
all left behind. I turned
my back on God, but God had a plan. From the age of fifteen to twenty-six I
went the way of the world, no interest in God or religion. For ten years life
was fun, life was good. I had a good job, paid well, had a few girlfriends,
partied a bit.
Gradually, however, boredom set in. My job became boring, earning money lost
it's appeal, girlfriends and parties became tedious. I don't know when it started;
that's the problem when something starts small, occasional, but slowly over
time it gradually builds up, becomes more frequent, more noticeable. For two
years I couldn't figure it out. It never occurred to me that God might even
remotely stop the rot.
Then at the age of twenty-seven at an Open University summer school that boredom
disappeared. Over breakfast I met the woman who was to become my wife. This
woman came and sat at my breakfast table and we chatted, as you do. Actually,
I don't remember the conversation, all I remember is saying "Yes"
and "No" in all the right places, nursing a hangover from the
night before ! I wasn't paying much attention, but as she walked away to get
ready for her lectures I heard a voice say "She's the one".
Confused I looked around, there was no one there. "She's the one, what
?" I thought.
Silence was the reply; but I knew as I asked the question that she's the one
I'm going to marry. At meal times I looked eagerly for her every day so that
I could get to know her, and by the end of the week we had exchanged addresses.
Over the following months, by letter and phone, this woman encouraged me to
find out about Christianity. She was a Christian, and I thought that I was too.
After all I had been baptised and confirmed, I even still believed in
Jesus and God and what he had done for us on the cross.
I met up with a group of Christians in Cardiff, where I lived at the time, who
showed me how to be a Christian. They helped me to understand some of
"As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead."
James 2 : 26
I had faith, but it was a dead faith. I believed but I didn't know how to do.
Like the Alpha course they showed me how to do. Helped me to be a Christian
once more. As I walked home one night after a discussion on Sin and Repentance
I thought about all the wrong I had done. As I walked I cried. As I cried I
said sorry, and asked Jesus back into my life.
Nine months after we first met, my wife and I were engaged. Four months after
that we were married. For
my part, I believed that God had spoken to me and so I had no doubts about my
wife. She however, had doubts about me. But God worked with her and showed her
that I was the one for her. But that's another story !
I have a new job, a new lease of life away from my past.
With my wrongs forgiven, my life given to Jesus I look forward to what the future
has in store, watching the rest of God's plan unfold in my life. We've been
married for ten months and it certainly hasn't been a bed of roses. We've had
our differences but with Jesus as the focus of our life together, we never stay
annoyed for long.
As Christians when we get it wrong we don't get hung up on it; we have a solution.
We can confess our wrong thoughts and deeds and words to God. This is the end
of my testimony, but it's not the end of my story. The problems and hassles
don't go away but they are easier to handle and we don't get stuck in a rut.
We can put it behind us and move on together, writing the rest of our story
as we go.
Holy Land Diary May-June 1999